It's a new year -

yet everything's exactly the same - crappy. I used to always look forward to New Years because it used to always feel so rejuvenating, as if I was actually starting over. I guess I was always so blinded by the excitement, I don't realize that there is no such thing as starting over, no matter how many years pile upon me. Is it really possible to start over without having to think about all of the previous happenings you don't want to be reminded of? What IS starting over? To pretend nothing happened, and move on? To try to forget about everything that used to be, and keep going somewhere that'll show you wonders? You only get one shot, life isn't a Ninetendo, there are no reset buttons. The other day, when I woke up, the first thing I thought about was all the things I wished I never should have done. Then, in a split second, I instantly felt like crap. I do things without thinking and I don't look back. As alot of you say, 'whatever happens, happens', and sometimes, it works like that. It usually does for me, but I think I just had one of those days where an imaginary dump truck decides to back up near my head while I'm laying in bed and dump trash all over my face, enough to where the garbage juice was able to soak into my head and get me all pensive in the morning ANYWAYS, enough emo talk. Shit happens, they say, and unfortunately, "they" are right. Anyway (lol Ngo points out that I say 'anyway' alot), it's finally 2009! January 29th is another year older for me, yay.

Let's look at some New Years Resolution, shall we?

-Learn to be nice.. to everyone.. at all times.. :P
-Get back in shape! Now that's a MUST!
-Be a little more useful these days
-Get better at the piano and the guitar (thanks for the acoustic Fender, Uncle, I L O V E it )
-Get a new job
-Save save save!
-Lose all of the useless people in my life
-Stay out of trouble
-Grow my hair back out
-Clean more often
-Learn to apologize (lol Antoinette)
-GET RID OF THIS FARMER'S TAN THAT I'VE HAD FOR LIKE 2 YEARS!
-Focus on school? Get kick ass grades!
-Less sleep, more action, hut hut hut!
-Read the whole dictionary
-I have to snow board and ice skate this year >:0
-Dude, I need to clean out my closet and get organized!

Too much things to think of D: I'm done for the night.